God is present

Since the beginning of my salvation I can’t recall a time where I have not been aware of God’s presence. Now, there have been the “dark night of the soul” type of trials where I cried out for His manifest presence and felt nothing. Yes, there have been times where I cried out “WHERE ARE YOU??!!” But there has not been a time I can remember where I wasn’t having this inner secret communion with Him. Asking questions, waiting for responses, searching and pursuing, but always aware that He is there. Even when I chose to turn away from Him for a season I was still very aware that I could not escape His gaze or knowledge of my circumstances. I may have stopped communing with Him, but He never did. Somehow, some way, He made His presence known.

I’ve learned that “we walk by faith and not by sight”. Jesus said “I will never leave you nor abandon you”. In the silent times it comes down to a matter of believing Him at His word and living it out. Even as I type these words I know that He knows, if that makes sense. The Spirit of God, the Spirit of Christ makes all this possible. As a born again believer, you have the presence of Almighty God living inside of you. I don’t understand how He does it, but He does.

Learn how to cultivate this awareness; believe what you read in His word and act upon it. Your relationship with Christ will blossom. You will not be unproductive. I believe that you were not saved for yourself, but you were saved for Him! So go out to your world and influence it. Christ in you, the hope of glory!!

He decided to make known to them His blessing to the nations; the glorious riches of this mystery is the indwelling of the Anointed in you! The very hope of glory.

Colossians 1:27 The Voice (VOICE)

Yesterday something happened while I was preaching out of the book of Isaiah. I felt like the Spirit of God put his hand on my heart and said, right there. I was preaching on what Isaiah must have seen and felt when God called him. In a vision he saw the glory and holiness of God. How did Isaiah respond to that revelation?

“Woe is me, for I am undone! Because I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people with unclean lips; for my eyes have seen the King, The Lord of Hosts.” Isaiah was a man of God born out of necessity. A man who identified with his current generation.

Yes, my notes went out the window! They were just a springboard for what God was about to reveal. I began to reveal the current state of the American Christian and our Churches. The loss for the reverence of God, the fear of God and consecrated living. It was as if God was standing inside of me, reaching out to thousands of people even though there were only a handful in front of me.

Weeks ago I shared a post on Facebook about what I believed to be a question from the Spirit of God. Early one morning while I was getting ready for work, a questioned formed in my heart and mind. “When is a candle at its brightest?” I responded “When it’s the darkest.” As quick as the question was formed, it was gone. I just shrugged my shoulders and went about my day.

I felt an uneasiness all day after our meeting yesterday. I text my friend Pastor Tim and told him how I’ve been feeling about things for quite some time now, but I couldn’t put my finger on why. I have been uneasy about a lot of things, public and private.

Then this morning, still feeling a heaviness from the day before, I bowed my head in prayer. I asked God, what is wrong with me, why am I feeling like this?? And then I heard in my heart. “Lead them back to Me, lead them back in holiness and reverence, bring them back” I began to weep. I said “I can’t! I am the least likely to lead a mass of people like that. You know what I’ve done, my divorce, how  I turned away from You, my past, how could you use me like that? They will shun me, hate me. My family would be vulnerable to attack, in and outside of the Church” I wept and wept. I wasn’t scared of what all this would mean, but I felt unworthy. He went silent. I didn’t need “another word” nor did I want one. Then,  all the character studies, my time alone with God, all the recent morning devotions came crashing together! God will use a person that no one else wants or cares about, what other people have shunned or discarded, and He will use them for His glory. All a person has to do is say “YES” when He calls.

In 2005 a well-known minister prophesied over me about a specific “cause” that God had given me. He said it was huge and going to be like another person’s international ministry (whom I will not mention). I put that on a shelf because I had no clue what He was talking about, nor was there a “cause” in my heart.  All these years later, could it be true?? All I can say right now is when I responded this morning in my heart with “ok Lord” the heaviness lifted.

I began to think of all the people that have backslidden and turned away from God. All the people that think they are done, God doesn’t love them any more, how could He? All the people that are in Church just going through the motions and all the people that have been deceived into believing that they can live any old way and be “ok” with God. This won’t be easy, it will take a devoted band of people to accomplish, but Jesus turned the whole world upside down with just twelve (unlikely) men that said “YES”.

Some years ago when my children were young, we had an event happen in our home that taught me about spiritual warfare.

Not soon after my salvation I noticed some supernatural activity in our home. I remember one evening in particular that I saw a shadowy figure standing outside my bedroom door. I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me so I dismissed it, but I do remember feeling a presence like you feel when you know that you’re not alone. weeks went by and I never told anyone in my family. I didn’t want to scare my kids.

Well, one night my three children began to explain how scared they have been for the last few weeks. They said something was in their bedroom. All three of them explained they have been seeing a shadowy figure in their room.

I prayed with them and over the house. Then one night my wife said that she saw something near the children’s room. That was it! I decided to do something a little more combative. The next evening I was alone in my house. As I began walking upstairs towards my children’s bedroom I felt an uneasiness come upon me and fear began to settle in. I walked into the bedroom, I stretched my hand out to turn on the light and I heard “Do not turn on the light, you are the light! Tell them they are trespassing!” I knew that it was the voice of the Holy Spirit.

I walked in the pitch black room and began to utter the words “You are trespassing, leave this place. This home belongs to Jesus Christ!” I prayed for a few more moments with a few choice words and that was it. That evil presence never came back.

I learned something very valuable that night. Everything belongs to God and Satan is the one trespassing. “The earth is the Lord’s, and all its fullness, the world and those who dwell therein. For He has founded it upon the seas, and established it upon the waters.”(Psalm 24:1-2)

Do not be afraid, know that you have the light of Almighty God living inside of you! Everything belongs to God!


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The sound of His Presence is more silent than the quietest sealed room 6 miles below the earth. The silence over shadows all noise as if to snuff them out. It’s uncomfortable at first, the mind still clashes about. Then as if to trigger some unknown alarm in the deepest recess of the soul, your spirit responds and stands at attention. You find yourself in the Presence of the Almighty. No words can be spoken only the cry of deep calling unto deep. Everything in you knows that this is God. He has just arrived unannounced. You weren’t even thinking of Him. It’s not the time or place you would have chosen to meet with God, yet here He is. Humbled by this unannounced visitation a tear begins to well up. A thought begins to form “Why?” No response is returned, only a silence that is other worldly. Time stands still. the world fades away. One moment feels like a lifetime. “Please stay”

Then as fast as the silence pushed out the noise surrounding it, it’s gone. The silence is gone. But in it’s wake is left confidence, security and a peace that surpasses any reasonable logic. Some have asked ” What is God like?” My response is this “He’s not like any person that I have ever known or met” How can the finite describe the Infinite? But I will tell you this, the conviction of His glory and the power of His love makes me want to be a better man!


A little over a week ago I began feeling uneasy. There were some things that had caused a response in my emotions that I didn’t want to deal with, so I began pushing them down like any normal MAN would do. Then one day my wife sent me a text about our granddaughter not feeling well and it triggered something deep down inside of me. I was about an hour and a half away from our home working at the time of her text. I remember thinking I’m too far away from home to help. I was almost the same distance from my home the day when little Alexandrea was killed 5 years ago. It all began to bubble up.

I don’t know what PTSD feels like but this had to be pretty close. As I made the travel back home from the job site I realized I was on the same highway, and in the same traffic, that barred me from getting home to Alexandrea and my family 5 years ago. The day Alexandrea was killed was the longest ride home of my life. All the emotions of that day welled up inside of me all over again. I kept pushing it down and pushing it down refusing to cry. When I got home I decided to stay busy with something, occupy my mind. I went to our local store to return a movie back to redbox. I must have stood at that kiosk for at least ten minutes. There wasn’t anyone else around in that corner of the store, I was by myself. I felt all those emotions start to well up from deep inside my soul. I kept scanning the movies not even thinking about what I was looking at. All I could feel was the pain of loosing Alexandrea. Tears began to well up in my eyes and I just stood there staring at the screen.

Then, all of a sudden I felt eyes upon me, like someone was watching me. I looked around to see who was behind me, no one was there. Three seconds later I heard a voice in my heart say “What are you looking for?” With many tears in my eyes, I put my head down with my hand still touching the screen and responded in a silent prayer “I’m looking for a movie to numb myself, I don’t want to think about or feel this pain anymore. I’ve cried a river of tears over loosing her and my family. I’m done, I don’t want to hurt anymore!” Then He said “Come to Me”. I immediately left the kiosk, got in my car and drove home. When I arrived at home it was still early enough that I was by myself. I sat at the edge of my couch and began to cry and tell God everything that I was feeling. I called out to the Spirit of God to comfort and bring healing to my heart. As I continued to pray I felt heaviness lift off of me. That was it, the pain was gone! A peace flooded my heart and I felt whole again. An unexpected, but needed encounter with the Spirit of Christ.

“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30)


Maybe it started weeks earlier, maybe months or years, who knows. Whatever the case, somewhere along the line an attitude was formed in Jonah. These things never happen over night. A little here, a little there, and before you know it you can begin to drift away. I have heard that “Delayed obedience is disobedience” and I think to a certain degree this is true. But to run in the opposite direction? That’s big time disobedience!

Jonah was about to get the biggest assignment of his life. Not an easy one. Go and preach against a city because of it’s wickedness. Nobody I know “likes” being the bearer of bad news. No one, that is, that has a good heart and is not critical of others. If it’s EASY for you to judge and be critical of others then you need to check your heart! What was in the heart of Jonah to turn him away from the commandment of God to preach? I mean isn’t this the attitude that got the city of Nineveh into trouble with God in the first place? Why use someone like Jonah that is just as rebellious as Nineveh?! To this day I don’t think I’ll will ever completely understand the ways of God, He definitely doesn’t think like us.

There is nothing that I know of recorded about Jonah other than what we find in the Bible. But maybe the answer to why Jonah ran in the opposite direction is right in front of us. Maybe the answer is found in his name. Jonah in the original language means “Dove”. Doves are skittish and passive. Jonah’s passivity would surely cause him to run in the opposite direction when facing confrontation.  Jonah is now facing God who is anything but passive. The winds of change are coming and a storm is forming in the background! Sometimes ignorance is bliss, but not in this case…Jonah is about to face the biggest storm of his life, literally.

(to be continued)

When my three and a half year old great niece was murdered in my home, I didn’t have a personal theology to prepare me for that storm. If I’m totally honest with myself and you, it wouldn’t of mattered if I did anyways, because it all would have went out the window that day. I’ve read about some terrible things that have happened to people in the Bible. I’ve read about some terrible things that have happened to people in the local newspapers. I get it. Anyone that has lived for any length of time past the age of five gets it. But still for some odd reason, you NEVER truly believe that things of this caliber will ever happen to you, even though you know there is a strong possibility that it might. You think “Hey, I’m going to be in that small percentage of people that experience some waves, but not a storm.” What is the alternative? To live in fear for the rest of your life? So what do we do?, we just tuck it away deep down inside and say NO, not me, never.

I recently told a group of people this “If I’m ever in a fight, a battle, I want someone with me that has been through some stuff, someone that is battle ready!” Give me someone that has been through some storms, not little waves, but actual storms. I feel I need to warn you right at this point. If you think that I have ALL the answers to WHY BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE?, or IF GOD IS IN CONTROL WHY DOES EVIL PERSIST?, you might as well un-follow me now. I can give you the answers to those questions in biblical terms and phrases, but it won’t relieve your pain of loss, suffering or anger. I can tell you why sin exists, why evil persists, why we have sickness and disease, war and famine, poverty and death. All the answers to those questions and more, are in the Word of God. But what I can offer you is HOPE. What I can offer you is HEALING. What I can do is point you to the One that said in the midst of my storm, “Peace, be still” When you and I meet again I want to introduce you to two people that went through a very personal hell. These two people went through some very difficult storms similar to each other and yet they survived in different ways. Survived? Yep, but not in the way I would have planned it! Next time “Storms Still Happen to The Good, The Bad and The Ugly”